I wish this was a positive Monday morning good morning post ..

I wish this was a positive Monday morning good morning post but I just can’t today TLDR - I am really struggling to put on a happy face today. I’ve spent the last 2 days contemplating if I should post this or not. But I feel like if I don’t say something... I’m going to be stuck in this cycle forever. Let me start off by saying this isn’t a guilt trip, it’s just me setting boundaries after a weekend that truly broke me *********** Honestly yesterday was an extremely tough day. I take one day off a week purely for my mental health. And it was made clear to me by all the people that turned their rebills off and hounded me yesterday that it’s only the days that I work myself to exhaustion that matter. On those days I work 16 hours. From the time I wake up to the time I can barely keep my eyes open I’m working. I spend at least 5 hours a day making or editing content. I run two pages of my own and another 4 of other girls. I have given up the daily things I enjoy doing like walking my dogs because I feel like my time is constantly demanded. I take a day off a week to recollect my thoughts, to learn to love myself again and to just rest because if I don’t do those things, I get into a rut. This past month many of my boundaries have been crossed, continuously and even when I’ve asked people to stop, they’d carry on. Some conversations I’ve had have triggered me and taken me back to a traumatic event in my life and yet I still carried on day to day even as I edited through tears reliving it. Sometimes time is demanded from me when I don’t even have it for myself and it makes me feel so bitchy and inadequate that I have to ask to breathe. I asked you guys what you wanted and you said more of me so I post at least 6 times a day, every single day. I post 2 new videos a week. I put videos out that took me forever to make for less than a cup of coffee and I undersell myself hard. However, I would not grow if I didn’t share other girls. And the same people that would complain are the same people to turn their rebill off if I missed one day of posting because I was physically unable to work. From here on out I want to make a few things clear - I am not constantly available. I am a human being. I have a ‘life’ too. I’m not just a bot that automatically replies. - If you cross the boundaries I have clearly stated I don’t want to be crossed because that’s your kink. You will receive whatever you tip for and nothing else - If you ask me, insinuate or suggest that we see eachother IRL, I will restrict you. Its not a conversation I even want t have. Its awkward for both of us. It’s against TOS. This is not a dating site and I am not looking to date anyone at the moment - If you tip me when you know I’m not available, you will receive it when I am available. I am setting the boundaries of when I am available and if you can’t respect those then you don’t respect me - I am limiting conversations to people without their rebill on to 3 conversations. I don’t want to build relationships with people and get to know them if they’re just going to leave. - I don’t give away premium services (I.e. anything on my tip menu) for free unless you are truly a regular. My page has always worked on a spoil me and I’ll spoil you basis. And those who spoil me know I will always go above and beyond for them. That being said I dont expect everyone to spoil me but then don’t ask me to do my job FOR FREE. To the 30 people that turned their rebill off, thank you. Because october is going to be spectacular for those who are here for it and I’m glad that only the people that appreciate the prep and hard work that goes into it will see it. To the people that do have theirs on and have had for months. You never go unappreciated. I hope you know when I send out rebill videos I remember all of your names and how long you’ve been around and even if you’ve never brought anything extra. the fact that you stick around and watch me grow month you month is the only thing that keeps me here and keeps me smiling I hope you understand that I’m not personally calling anyone out or attacking any single person. I am setting my boundaries for my own mental health so I don’t end up where I am today. I am grateful for every single one of you even those who have crossed the boundaries I’ve softly tried to set. I hope this doesnt make me seem ungrateful