Diary entry/ ignore I don’t know why i stayed with him so ..

Diary entry/ ignore

I don’t know why i stayed with him so long. Or helped him as much as I did.

If I told you if we worked hard enough together I could eventually bring in 15-20k usd A MONTH ⭐️ A MONTH⭐️ and all it would take would be for me blow you EVERY DAY or film a 5 MINUTE SCENE. Why wouldnt you do it with me? I can’t do this anymore. Im tired of you acting like it’s no big deal when you’re eating up my whole life. Are you waiting till I’m 50 to film with me? What is actually wrong with you???? I’m going insane I can’t do this anymore. You won’t take me on dates, you won’t tell me I’m pretty, you can’t even handle dinner so I can stream and make $1000 an hour. There’s no good mornings, no dates, no dinner, no birthdays, no anniversaries, no Christmas, no vacations, no breakfast in bed, no help with social media or taking pics of me, NOTHING. I don’t want this horrible life with you anymore. No wonder your wife and all your other girlfriends left you. You’re fcking trash. Wtf are you making me go through????

You refuse to have sex with me more than 5 minutes a year… A YEAR. If ur GAY then just get out of my life.

You can’t expect me to put up with this for as long as I have. I’m tired of living in hell with you. You won’t even take me on a date. I have no idea wtf is going on here. This is crazy.

If you don’t love me and want me to succeed then I can’t be with you. Why would you make my life as difficult as possible? I don’t want this.

I saw an instagram video where a girl was interviewed and asked why she was single. She answered that she broke up with her boyfriend of 7 years… because he wouldn’t take her on a date. I am not the only good girl to go through this. I deserve more than less than bare minimum. I have gone above and beyond for you and you can’t even give me a 2 minute sex scene. And then have the audacity to act like I’m the problem when I should have left you a long time ago for someone with a working dick. You refuse to get a blue pill knowing you’re costing me everything every single day you won’t sleep with me. I can’t do this with you anymore. You’re not worth this anguish and stress and being broke for. You’re the worst boyfriend I have ever had. I feel stupid for putting up with it as long as I have. Why would you make sure I make the least amount of money every day and have the most stress? You’re worthless. I don’t want you anymore. I have given you too many chances and too much time. You have no job and somehow never any time to help me. Go to hell.

I realized that girl in the interview was going to be me if I don’t end this now. I don’t want to end up like her and have you destroy 7 years of my life.